The Way to Begin

Okay, so. . .blogging is apparently all the rage now. And, since I am a writer at heart, I figure that starting a blog might not be the worst idea in the world. What better way to just get all this stuff out of my really random/weird/totally insane mind [!!!] than by just keeping it all locked inside me. So here is a small peak into my heart, my mind, and my soul. Poetry, ramblings, thoughts, song lyrics, quotes: anything that strikes me! And let me tell you -- what a way to begin than on a day like this!

Do you ever wonder how, sometimes, God has this amazing plan worked out for your life, and then you totally go and try to ignore it? Jonah did -- and look how it turned out for him! I suppose that you could say that I've been a Jonah, of sorts, over the past several years of my life. I thought I knew what God wanted. . .and I didn't exactly like the idea. So, I tried to run away. . .and I hit a brick wall! I hit total rock-bottom, and I was still decending lower and lower and lower and. . .well, you get the idea.

But God wasn't done with me yet. I wonder how He manages to put up with me when I have an extreme dendency to fall on my butt A LOT! But He always comes and picks me back up again. For all of my life, I've known about the grace of God. I've been taught and instructed about this concept since I was a little kid. But never have I felt it so clearly as I have today. . .and the strange thing is: I can't even tell you why!

Yeah, even on my blog, I have to keep some secrets! Maybe one day, when the time is right, the story will find its way onto my blog. Maybe even into a best-selling book one day -- aside from the great American novel that I do still intend to write! Anyway. . .they say that people can cry tears of joy and tears of sadness. Can they do it at the same time? I did about an hour ago, so I guess that you can! Tears of sorrow and regret over choices that I have made in my life -- and some were pretty off-the-wall! And then, there were tears of joy that come with the realization that maybe it's not too late. . . . . . . . . . . .but that's another story! There's something that the younger of my two brothers [Micah] has said to me time and time again: "No matter what happens, the sun will still rise tomorrow, and Jesus Christ will still be Lord." Truer words were never spoken.

You wanna be real?
You wanna have purpose in this life?
You wanna be someone,
Laying down your pride?
You wanna be someone someday?
Lay it all down before the King.
Oh yeah.
You wanna be whole?
You wanna have purpose inside?
You wanna have virtue,
And purify your mind?
You wanna be set free today?
Then lay it all down before the King.
Oh yeah
THIS IS MY DESIRE
TO BE USED BY YOU!!
~"My Desire" -- Jeremy Camp~